Saturday, October 3, 2009
This is SOOO not a diary
I've always been bad at writing diaries. That's why I cannot and will not make this blog a diary of any kind! As a kid I'd inevitably get a diary for Christmas - Santa clearly knew of my love affair with all things stationary - and I would wait until January 1st, eager to pour out the myriad of emotions that I knew I deep down possessed. However, by day 5 I had sunk to writing about what I had for dinner and what a pain in the ass my twin brother could sometimes be. Not exactly the juicy, wild stuff I had envisioned. Pathetically the most remotely interesting entry was about how I thought a boy had whistled at me - written backwards in case my brother attempted to read my diary. Sad I know. My brother only made one attempt to read the diary, mocked me for how utterly unexciting it was, and never tried to find it again. Mind you, not many people would expect anything scandalous to come out of a diary with a picture of Little Orphan Annie on the cover. As I grew older, I continued my pattern of writing for a week or so and then abandoning my efforts. I didn't even have to buy a new diary each time, I'd just keep filling the same sad journal. So why a blog when I couldn't keep up a diary? A few reasons... A blog post can be anything; it can be a story from the past, rantings about the perils of parenting, even a funny anecdote about my new life in Australia. Although I am sure it's not healthy, I think my diaries failed because I prefer to internalize my emotions. Trust me, I can cry at the drop of a hat (something I hate) but I never wanted to label what I was feeling! I'm hoping this blog will let me work on my writing and occasionally show some emotion, but without the "touchy-feely" stuff rampant in diaries. So, this is my challenge - work on letting my creative left brain loose as I share my thoughts on motherhood, life in a new country, and whatever else helps keep me sane! Wish me luck!